Bad Day…

December 14, 2008 waterswife

Yesterday was a bad day. I didn’t feel “right” all day. And then it came time to get ready to meet up with the in-laws to go to a Christmas Concert. The plan was that we were to all get a little dressed up to make it more fun.

That would have been great, except none of my nice clothes fit right. I’ve probably gained back all the weight I had lost earlier this year. Nothing fits. Plus it was snowing, which really made me not want to wear a skirt.

Then my make up and hair wouldn’t cooperate. I felt so fat and ugly. And it didn’t help that I kept crying off my eyeliner.

When we met up with the in-laws and I saw that everyone, aside from me, looked so great…I felt even more lame. I know it’s “all in my head” but it was just so frustrating. I felt so out of place. I am not a huge fan of crowds, and as we sat during the concert and I looked at all the people around me, all I could think about was how I was probably the largest women in this whole building.

Days like yesterday really suck. I know I made it a horrible time for my poor hubby who was trying to cheer me up all night long. I hate when I do that to him. He deserves the best version of me, and yesterday was totally NOT that.

All I can do now, is take the anger and sadness I felt yesterday and use it as motivation to get out of this shell that I’ve covered myself in. We meet with our dude this week, and I swear, this will be the last “first visit” I ever have to have with him. I WILL get this done. I WILL lose this weight. I WILL gain self esteem. I WILL be the best person I can be.

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14 Comments Add your own

  • 1. Adriana&hellip  | 

    Been there, Aimee! Just keep your chin up…. we all need to keep ALL our chins up LOL…. Things will consistently improve and you’ll feel a lot better 🙂 Just keep your eye on the prize 😀 (((((HUGS)))))

  • 2. Anonymous&hellip  | 

    it’ll be okay keep your chinS up!

  • 3. Anonymous&hellip  | 

    ok so my name is trina and i have been trying to lose weight for years now im finally down to 560 and my girlfriend and i have never been happier. we hope that someday i will be down to 545. then we can finally accomplish all of our dreams if you know what i mean. someday i will be able to put my shoes on and tie them…GOODBYE VELCRO SHOES!!!! good luck!!! us big girls gotta stick together

  • 4. Christy&hellip  | 

    gahh….I felt the same way last night – and I was the director of a Christmas program – which meant I had to stand up in front of everyone last night 😦 Keep up the good work – WE CAN DO THIS!!

  • 5. Barbara_in_WA&hellip  | 

    Oh Aimee, we all do that. I mostly feel like that when I am PMSing! No matter what I do, my hair looks like crap, my face looks blotchy, my clothes don’t feel right, and my attitude sucks! Embrace it. It means you’re a real woman!

  • 6. Amy&hellip  | 

    Aimee,You’re beautiful inside and out! Days like that are crazy rough and I’m so sorry that everything just piled ontop of you already feeling badly about yourself. You’re so strong and I’m so proud of your hard work. You have the right frame of mind and great expectations. I can’t wait to read all about your ongoing success!Love ya!

  • 7. Anonymous&hellip  | 

    so umm im sorry but i dont feel all that bad for you…its not my fault the only thing you think about is food… “oh my gosh your repossing my car…i want nachos” this is something you might just have to take care of on your own its not like we can go to your house everyday and take the box of twinkies out from underneath your pillow.

  • 8. Tyson&hellip  | 

    Nobody asked you to feel bad. But if you don’t care to understand, we don’t care about you. Thanks for wasting your time, though. 🙂

  • 9. Amander&hellip  | 

    I don’t understand why anonymous wants to belittle you. Everyone has their struggles, and until you are in someone else’s shoes, you have no idea what it is like to be them.It makes me sad that anonymous doesn’t have more empathy for people. I don’t think s/he would appreciate it if s/he were blogging about a personal struggle and someone made disparaging comments about her feelings. But maybe s/he wouldn’t care – I just know I would.Keep doing this blog, Aimee, don’t let someone ruin it for you and for us.

  • 10. Leah&hellip  | 

    Aimee, This is your cousin, Leah. I’m really really proud of you and want you to know how much I love you. What the anonymous commenter does not seem to understand about life is that EVERYONE has struggles and that the nature of addiction is the same whether that addiction is to food, chemical substances, or relationships. Or unkindness for that matter. What I find most amazing about the comment is that this “anonymous” person seems to believe that their character flaws are somehow less obvious than the physical flaws of others. Anonymous, Ugly is a character trait, not a physical one. We see your ugliness. It’s coming through loud and clear. Aimee didn’t ask you to feel sorry for her. She’s merely reaching out to others to help herself and potentially others through a difficult part of the journey. It’s courageous and powerful. You are a coward. Stop wasting your time trying to crap on others and take care of your own problems… like your rotten soul.-Leah

  • 11. Adriana&hellip  | 

    I agree with Leah – Aimee helps others feel like they aren’t alone in their struggles. Don’t put someone down just because your life sucks too. No one’s life is perfect so there must be something horribly wrong in your life to make you feel like you need to be mean. We forgive you and I hope your life turns for the better soon.Aimee don’t let them upset you or bring you down – we love you 😉

  • 12. Lisa&hellip  | 

    Haters suck. Yeah, anonymous…that means you!Aimee, I know exactly how you were feeling! It’s going to get better. For you, for me…for all of us. Hang in there, girl!

  • 13. morewineplease&hellip  | 

    Hey lady.. sorry you had a bad day.. I have to tell I felt like this all through college, everyone around me was a size 2!Keep trying to get down, you are beautiful!

  • 14. lisa (lost pezhead)&hellip  | 

    whoa, i didn’t see those anonymous comments. some people are idiots, i tell ya. i’ll be watching for your response. i don’t get some people….eww….oh i can be mean, but i won’t…

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